“Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?”

This popped up in a Facebook memory today for 2018. I love when a good story shows up in my memories that I had forgotten all about. God is ALWAYS faithful.

I went to bed last night defeated, overwhelmed, unambitious, complacent and so so tired. Ben said, “well do you trust God or don’t you?” Honestly? I didn’t. It had been over a week of one inconvenience, problem or disaster after another. Yes. God’s good…all the time!
..but I felt I had somehow fallen out of the scope of His vision for now. I was on my own and had to deal with the mess on my own.

I woke up this morning and said God, I’m done looking at the problems, I’m looking at you. A few hours later someone obeyed God in a really big, faith stretching way and blessed our family. I’ve had God tell me a few times to do something but I’ve never been the one to hear “God told me to do this.” He has ALWAYS come through one way or another and I have been so blessed by so many people, but this was specific. This was an undenyable finger of mercy pointed in my face from someone who had no clue a need existed beyond what God told them.

Tonight I’m at peace. I’m excited. I’m reminded that He is watching me, caring for me, is intimately acquainted with my every need and that there is nothing beyond the scope of His power. My faith is reignited and I have hope. I’m also convicted and have a vivid reminder of how petty I can be. My words, my actions, my attitudes…P.E.T. T.Y. This is God that I doubt sometimes. Not my neighbor, friend or husband…GOD. Who do I think I am? I’m reminded of God’s response to Job. “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell me, if you understand. Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!” I need to go on ahead and get over myself. Haha.

Giving was always fun and exciting (almost always) but after being a recipient and seeing the other side of this thing….I CANNOT WAIT for an opportunity to obey God again. What he asks of me or you might stretch our faith but He’s using it to build another’s in ways we never imagined.